January 05, 2012

Fawwaz On Your First Day Of School

Off you went this morning, with hardly a glance backwards, to grow and learn and discover all on your own. “You’re going to have so much fun” I said, and I didnt mean just today, I meant in your life. Because its the first step. Everyday you change a little, grow a little and become a little more independent. And every day, my heart breaks a little but I am at the same time filled with pride and joy. We have had almost six years together and now it is time for you to begin to find your own way.i understand that you don’t like the school but i believe you will adopt with Mandarin language.Chealla Kutty you are Always Best!!!

I miss you sometimes. I miss the baby, the two year old, the preschooler. But each time one stage finishes, each time another you comes along who is a little different to the last and a lot different to the first, there is so little time to mourn the passing because it is overshadowed by excitement and wonder for what is to come next. I’m letting go. Little by little. Seeing you forever changing and growing, and trying to keep up with you. It happens so slowy I dont notice until I think back to something you used to do, something you used to say, or just how you used to be half an inch smaller. It is bitter sweet, and amazing.

Fathering you has taught me so much. Yes, didnt you know that? You’ve taught me things too. We will continue to hang out together and learn together. But now it is time for you to reach out ever so slowly but ever so certainly from infancy and innocence to begin to discover the world all by yourself. Tiny that you still seem to me.

Watching you grow and helping you to become all that you can be is the most wonderful thing I will ever do. I wasnt far out of school myself when you came along, and you taught me to grow up a lot. Now it is my turn to teach you. I won’t be there by your side so much anymore, but I’m right behind you all the way.

2012 begin of your full time school days,Be good, be kind, be brave. Be confident and patient, but most of all enjoy.....Atta and Mama always proud of u Chella Kutty !!

May this new year all your dreams turn into reality & All your efforts into great achievements. Wishing you a fabulous 2012 with full of great achievements and experiences.A meaningful chapter waiting to be written HAPPY NEW YEAR!